Stressed spelled backwards is desserts!

So the day after I posted the last entry AF showed up. So its now on to April and hopefully a Christmas/New Year's birthday! My recent work situation might be prohibiting the baby making though. You see, I work two jobs. I am constantly running between two places, staying up late, getting up early and eating horribly. Being plus sized already I know this isn't good. Needless to say I don't have time to exercise at all. I am under so much stress I just know I won't concieve until I can quit one of my jobs. DH isn't working currently because he is in school. This May he'll graduate and have a job so at that point I can re evaluate the employment situation but I don't think I'll get pregnant until he graduates. So such is life. I'll keep recording our story.

BFN again...

Well I broke down. I know, I know I said I would wait until Sat. but I just wanted to know. I read the box and felt comfortable about testing now. And I did this am. BFN. Thats ok though. I've got to keep trying.
I'm sure my stress level isn't helping and I know I've been under a lot with working two jobs. And because of the two jobs I am eating out a lot. So I am going to attempt to eat better and start exercising. I think I need to be more healthy. That has got to help too. Also I have to cut back on my caffiene intake. As I suck down my Vanilla latte...hey its half caf! Heh...
So now on to team April. Which if I were to concieve that would put my expected due date to Dec 26th or so. So we'll see!

T minus 5...

So recently I've been having "symptoms". They've been more noticeable than before...and really more annoying. I've been having cramps since about 7DPO and now I am on 10DPO and I still feel the same. Low abdominal cramping, very tired, acne break outs, queasiness (on and off through out the day, breast tenderness/sensitivity, occasional dizziness and lower back pain. I know that its still kinda early and it could just be af but something seems different.

I talked to DH about it but I didn't want to get his hopes up. He said that its OK to be hopeful but not to be discouraged or disappointed if af shows up. So that's my new "philosophy". I am hopeful and not discouraged. So I get to test on Saturday. AF is due Friday. If there is no af by noon (she normally shows up early after I wake up but is definitely there by noon) on Friday I am going to purchase some hpt's.

Its sort of exciting to possibly be pregnant. If not then we just try again. I am now feeling much better about the whole situation. Even if we don't get pregnant ever I am ok with that. I know its all on God's time now.