Implantation Bleeding

Well let me start this off by saying I don't think I'm pregnant at all. I've been under a lot of stress and I don't feel any different than before. But today I am 12 or 13 DPO and I have some really light brownish colored spotting...well with some EWCM....its so faint...so is it implantation bleeding or just my period starting really slow. Normally AF is heavy and I'm cramping from the get go...no warning just all out BOOM and it hits and I feel like junk. I have no cramps I've been feeling great other than a little tired from working a whole bunch...and then this super light spotting. Its strange. Not sure what the deal is but I'm sure you'll find out soon. AF is due on Friday. I have a feeling she'll show... Stay tuned.

T minus 5...

So recently I've been having "symptoms". They've been more noticeable than before...and really more annoying. I've been having cramps since about 7DPO and now I am on 10DPO and I still feel the same. Low abdominal cramping, very tired, acne break outs, queasiness (on and off through out the day, breast tenderness/sensitivity, occasional dizziness and lower back pain. I know that its still kinda early and it could just be af but something seems different.

I talked to DH about it but I didn't want to get his hopes up. He said that its OK to be hopeful but not to be discouraged or disappointed if af shows up. So that's my new "philosophy". I am hopeful and not discouraged. So I get to test on Saturday. AF is due Friday. If there is no af by noon (she normally shows up early after I wake up but is definitely there by noon) on Friday I am going to purchase some hpt's.

Its sort of exciting to possibly be pregnant. If not then we just try again. I am now feeling much better about the whole situation. Even if we don't get pregnant ever I am ok with that. I know its all on God's time now.